Day #1 without ANY Facebook - going ok!
I woke up wanting to check it desperately, but reminded myself that ultimately, Facebook is not my life and there are more important things than status updates. My plan with this fast is that everytime I have the desire to go on Facebook, I quote a Bible verse from my morning devotional. The hope is that the Facebook urge would go away and I would be freed to spend more time with God and my kids and my husband and not be tempted to spend the entire day on it.
It seems so silly that someone could be this addicted to such a stupid website, but I guess I get caught up in wanting to talk to people, spy on people and in the end, all I'm doing is trying to escape MY life by getting lost in theirs. It's a good realization to see what you're doing, that it's wrong and that God has something better for your life.
I know that after this week I will go back to using Facebook, it's inevitable. But I hope that it becomes just a little bit less important to me and that this week teaches me endurance of temptation and that I conquer.
Here are some of the scriptures I'm trying to memorize today as I struggle -
James 1:2-5
2 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3 For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4 So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.
James 1:12
12 God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
Hebrews 12:5,6
5 And have you forgotten the encouraging words God spoke to you as his children? He said, “My child, don’t make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and don’t give up when he corrects you.
6 For the Lord disciplines those he loves,
and he punishes each one he accepts as his child.”
Now, I'm not claiming perfection as I struggle, I'm being honest and open that I AM struggling. Please pray that I can "survive" and endure and not fail as I seek to free myself from the Facebook-hold! :P
Monday, August 23, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
I'm Weird, So What?!
Some people have said to me lately that I'm reliving my teenage years. I wouldn't disagree to an extent. Those are the years where you want to make your own decisions but everyone else seems to be running your life. You never feel in control. To be honest, I hated my teenage years and even though some aspects would be nice to have again; someone in authority making my decisions, paying my bills, etc...I wouldn't go back to that in a million years!
I like being an adult, minus the above nuisances. I can make a decision knowing that if it fails, the fault will be on me and that's ok. I can decide to do something without worrying what so and so will think or have enormous amounts of guilt because I didn't ask permission. God is the only one I take my business up with, other than that, I feel complete satisfaction in knowing that I don't do things to please others nor do I need their approval to be happy.
Making the decision to get piercings and tattoos is my decision. Just like the decisions I make everyday in raising my kids. Just like what I eat, how I dress, where I pee. They're MY decisions. And whether someone else likes them or not, is really not my problem...it's theirs. That's been a tough lesson for me the last couple of years. I've really tried to act my hardest not to get caught up in what other people think about me, and I've finally come to terms with the issue - THEM! How someone else reacts is not my business, my business is how I deal with that, and I think that I've been doing well.
I've been telling people a lot lately "if you can't handle me, then you probably shouldn't be my friend!" and that's for my safety and theirs. Emotionally, some people just can't handle me - my honesty, bluntness, and sometimes crazy looks! :) But I know that the ones who CAN, are true friends.
So if someone says to me that they don't like my hair, my lip ring, my tattoo, my shirt, my butt ... I don't care! Whether you like it or not has no affect on me. If you can't handle it, don't be my friend!
I'm different, and the best thing is, God made me this way! It's all for a purpose people :) haha I <3 that God has a sense of humor ... it helps me get thru the day knowing that not everyone is meant to be my friend, to like me, to love me ... but He does and that's all that matters!
I like being an adult, minus the above nuisances. I can make a decision knowing that if it fails, the fault will be on me and that's ok. I can decide to do something without worrying what so and so will think or have enormous amounts of guilt because I didn't ask permission. God is the only one I take my business up with, other than that, I feel complete satisfaction in knowing that I don't do things to please others nor do I need their approval to be happy.
Making the decision to get piercings and tattoos is my decision. Just like the decisions I make everyday in raising my kids. Just like what I eat, how I dress, where I pee. They're MY decisions. And whether someone else likes them or not, is really not my problem...it's theirs. That's been a tough lesson for me the last couple of years. I've really tried to act my hardest not to get caught up in what other people think about me, and I've finally come to terms with the issue - THEM! How someone else reacts is not my business, my business is how I deal with that, and I think that I've been doing well.
I've been telling people a lot lately "if you can't handle me, then you probably shouldn't be my friend!" and that's for my safety and theirs. Emotionally, some people just can't handle me - my honesty, bluntness, and sometimes crazy looks! :) But I know that the ones who CAN, are true friends.
So if someone says to me that they don't like my hair, my lip ring, my tattoo, my shirt, my butt ... I don't care! Whether you like it or not has no affect on me. If you can't handle it, don't be my friend!
I'm different, and the best thing is, God made me this way! It's all for a purpose people :) haha I <3 that God has a sense of humor ... it helps me get thru the day knowing that not everyone is meant to be my friend, to like me, to love me ... but He does and that's all that matters!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
An Outlet
Lately, I've been really getting into photography. It's a total outlet for me as I relax, sit back, and make people look gorgeous (with a little help from Photoshop!)!
It's honestly been something I really enjoy. Seeing someone's reaction when they see a picture you took transform into something that will be hanging on their walls...I love that feeling. I love savouring memories!
What I've really found through my disovery of the love of photography, is that it's all mine! No one can take away my satisfaction in what I do away! Sure someone can immitate it, but it will always still have been mine! Maybe that sounds bad or weird, but I love things that show me that, yes, I do have talent and it did not come from no where. It's God-given!
My mom has always said to me "you're so talented" and I've always just shrugged it off, "whatever" I'd say to ignore it and not be in the spotlight. But I am! And for once, I'm starting to realize it. Now to keep it controlled and not let myself become proud will be the challenge lol.
I will be posting my work on my Picasa site - take a look :) I'm pretty happy with what I've done so far!
It's honestly been something I really enjoy. Seeing someone's reaction when they see a picture you took transform into something that will be hanging on their walls...I love that feeling. I love savouring memories!
What I've really found through my disovery of the love of photography, is that it's all mine! No one can take away my satisfaction in what I do away! Sure someone can immitate it, but it will always still have been mine! Maybe that sounds bad or weird, but I love things that show me that, yes, I do have talent and it did not come from no where. It's God-given!
My mom has always said to me "you're so talented" and I've always just shrugged it off, "whatever" I'd say to ignore it and not be in the spotlight. But I am! And for once, I'm starting to realize it. Now to keep it controlled and not let myself become proud will be the challenge lol.
I will be posting my work on my Picasa site - take a look :) I'm pretty happy with what I've done so far!
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