I'm Weird, So What?!

Some people have said to me lately that I'm reliving my teenage years. I wouldn't disagree to an extent. Those are the years where you want to make your own decisions but everyone else seems to be running your life. You never feel in control. To be honest, I hated my teenage years and even though some aspects would be nice to have again; someone in authority making my decisions, paying my bills, etc...I wouldn't go back to that in a million years!

I like being an adult, minus the above nuisances. I can make a decision knowing that if it fails, the fault will be on me and that's ok. I can decide to do something without worrying what so and so will think or have enormous amounts of guilt because I didn't ask permission. God is the only one I take my business up with, other than that, I feel complete satisfaction in knowing that I don't do things to please others nor do I need their approval to be happy.

Making the decision to get piercings and tattoos is my decision. Just like the decisions I make everyday in raising my kids. Just like what I eat, how I dress, where I pee. They're MY decisions. And whether someone else likes them or not, is really not my problem...it's theirs. That's been a tough lesson for me the last couple of years. I've really tried to act my hardest not to get caught up in what other people think about me, and I've finally come to terms with the issue - THEM! How someone else reacts is not my business, my business is how I deal with that, and I think that I've been doing well.

I've been telling people a lot lately "if you can't handle me, then you probably shouldn't be my friend!" and that's for my safety and theirs. Emotionally, some people just can't handle me - my honesty, bluntness, and sometimes crazy looks! :) But I know that the ones who CAN, are true friends.

So if someone says to me that they don't like my hair, my lip ring, my tattoo, my shirt, my butt ... I don't care! Whether you like it or not has no affect on me. If you can't handle it, don't be my friend!

I'm different, and the best thing is, God made me this way! It's all for a purpose people :) haha I <3 that God has a sense of humor ... it helps me get thru the day knowing that not everyone is meant to be my friend, to like me, to love me ... but He does and that's all that matters!