What I know is...
I'm not a good student.
I'm not a good reader.
I'm not a good wife.
I'm not a good cook.
I'm not a great mother.
I stink at housekeeping.
Laundry is my downfall.
I'm not always a good friend.
I'm not a good driver.
I don't take care of my body.
I'm not a good employee.
I'm not a good listener.
I'm not a good leader.
I procrastinate.
I gossip.
I argue over the stupidest things.
I can't stay focused.
I rarely follow a routine.
Overcommitment is my poison.
I'm not a good daughter.
I'm not a good sister.
I'm definitely not a good sister-in-law or daughter-in-law...so I've heard ;)
I don't follow the rules.
I tend to do things my own way.
I'm lazy.
I'm forgetful.
I'm unorganized.
I lack motivation for much of anything.
I have too high of standards.
My expectations are exceeding.
I don't make sense.
And I'm definitely not a good person.
While, most of these things I've heard from friends, family, and the little devil sitting on my shoulder...I KNOW that God sees me as His child. It sounds so silly that I would know these things about myself, and know that I'm going to fail, and know that I will always fall short...but not always believe that He loves me. How can anyone love someone with so many pitfalls? Sometimes it's so hard for me to understand.
The best part of being a child of God, is the part where we just have to give ourselves to Him, repent, and forget. Trusting that He will love us anyways, and listening to His further advice, comfort and word is what can keep us afloat. It's so simple, yet so hard that I can't even allow myself to give in and let Him be in control. All I have to do is acknowledge my faults, allow Him to be in reign over me and following the few simple instructions He gives.
But I think the hardest part of it for me is trusting. If God is above everyone else, omnipresent, most powerful, like none other...than why do I associate my mistrust in others with that of with God's? It's ridiculous, honestly. God has done nothing but prove himself trustworthy, time after time. He IS faithful. He is everything I'm not!
I'm working on my faith, my trust, my hopes...knowing that even if I don't see it in this world, I WILL! I will not give up!!!
I'm not a good student.
I'm not a good reader.
I'm not a good wife.
I'm not a good cook.
I'm not a great mother.
I stink at housekeeping.
Laundry is my downfall.
I'm not always a good friend.
I'm not a good driver.
I don't take care of my body.
I'm not a good employee.
I'm not a good listener.
I'm not a good leader.
I procrastinate.
I gossip.
I argue over the stupidest things.
I can't stay focused.
I rarely follow a routine.
Overcommitment is my poison.
I'm not a good daughter.
I'm not a good sister.
I'm definitely not a good sister-in-law or daughter-in-law...so I've heard ;)
I don't follow the rules.
I tend to do things my own way.
I'm lazy.
I'm forgetful.
I'm unorganized.
I lack motivation for much of anything.
I have too high of standards.
My expectations are exceeding.
I don't make sense.
And I'm definitely not a good person.
While, most of these things I've heard from friends, family, and the little devil sitting on my shoulder...I KNOW that God sees me as His child. It sounds so silly that I would know these things about myself, and know that I'm going to fail, and know that I will always fall short...but not always believe that He loves me. How can anyone love someone with so many pitfalls? Sometimes it's so hard for me to understand.
The best part of being a child of God, is the part where we just have to give ourselves to Him, repent, and forget. Trusting that He will love us anyways, and listening to His further advice, comfort and word is what can keep us afloat. It's so simple, yet so hard that I can't even allow myself to give in and let Him be in control. All I have to do is acknowledge my faults, allow Him to be in reign over me and following the few simple instructions He gives.
But I think the hardest part of it for me is trusting. If God is above everyone else, omnipresent, most powerful, like none other...than why do I associate my mistrust in others with that of with God's? It's ridiculous, honestly. God has done nothing but prove himself trustworthy, time after time. He IS faithful. He is everything I'm not!
I'm working on my faith, my trust, my hopes...knowing that even if I don't see it in this world, I WILL! I will not give up!!!
I would like to disagree with the 'definitely not a good sister-in-law' part...I think you are doing pretty well under the circumstances, and nobody is perfect! :)
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