I Want More of Him!

So, as embarrassing as it is to admit that I haven't always been good at reading the Bible, I do, I admit it! I've hated it, the thought of it. UGH, just thinking about how much it made me cringe, is making me cringe. I really hated the idea of reading a book that I couldn't and didn't understand. And even more upsetting is the fact that I can read something and by the time I'm done, have forgotten everything I read. So reading in general is hard for me, but reading the Bible...c'mon now, no way!

So for months and months now, I've been praying "God please give me the desire to read and know your Word. Help me to read it with the ability to remember what I'm reading, store it, know it and memorize it. Help me to not get confused, but to truly understand!" And that has been the cry of my heart for a long time now. I desperately DO want to read the Bible and know what God says and read about the lives of these amazing people that paved the way for me...so I prayed!

And prayed...and prayed...and prayed...

And before I go on, might I just ever so gently add, how amazing the feeling is when you know and feel that God is working in your life! You might see where this is going now, so I'll just share that after forever of praying for this desire...I finally got it! I can sit down and start somewhere in the Bible and never want to put it down! It's like those freaky people who are addicted to the Twilight series...that's ME with the Bible!!! It feels so good.

It might sound stupid, or like I'm bragging, but I'm not. I just want to share that for so long I've asked for this one thing and now I finally have it! Praise God...He never fails me! He takes his time, he places things in my path (good and bad) so that I may grow and learn and work on myself, so that I can be READY to do His work, it's on HIS timing! It's awesome!

If my life weren't so screwed up right now, I probably wouldn't have received this awesome motivation! I don't know...but I just feel like God placed this desire to read the Bible in my life for NOW, for RIGHT NOW! He knew I needed him, he knew this was the time!

So if you're ever wondering when/if God will ever answer your prayers...know that He did mine, and He can yours too! He's awesome, he's faithful, and he always sees the desires of our hearts!