Motivation and Healthy Living

Lately, I've been feeling really plagued by the way we live. Our daily chaos, our inability to have a structure, or even something resembling a routine. Our lack of something as simple as a home cooked meal. Our lack of motivation. My lack of motivation.

What is it that makes me wake up with no determination? How can I wake up after sleeping for 10+ hours and still feel empty. I can barely get myself to get out of bed, let alone do anything that's required of me throughout the day.

Now that is usually one day in a 2 week period that I have abundant amounts of energy and get everything on my list accomplished and usually even more! But those days are very few and far between.

I'm not asking to have those kinds of days everyday, but I question if the foods we eat, the routine we don't have and the lack of simple daily living is affecting me.

I've been inquiring from a lot of people lately about the effects of eating healthy. If you know me, you know that eating healthy is NOT on my priority list. If it looks good, I will eat it. Often I don't put two and two together that when my kids are cranky or when I have a headache or when I have a lack of energy, that it might be contributed to the foods we eat.

But if I have a lack of energy to even cook, how can I have the motivation to cook a whole MEAL, let alone a healthy one? It's a vicious cycle. One I hope to be breaking in the near future.

I so badly want to get this thing under control and feel content with life, even though I know it's ever changing. It's not that I'm not happy with my life, it's that I know I could be happier. And the worst part is, it's all under my control. I wish there was a magic pill that would give me energy, motivation, determination, a sense of healthy living, a set routine, stronger faith, stability, gentleness, patience, higher metabloism ;), desire and self control. Is there such a thing?

I know in time, as this just eats at me, I will have 2 choices - a) do something about it or b) do nothing. Right now I'm in the beginning stages of caring enough to even think about it, so I hope and pray in time I will have the determination to get this all figured out. Surely, going back to bed won't fix anything haha!