I'm finding it hard to be Christ-like today as the reality that no matter how hard I try, nothing will ever be good enough for my human friends and family, is setting in!
How on EARTH did Jesus maintain his cool or not jump on someone and kill them on the spot when they betrayed him or backstabbed him? I don't understand how it's possible to love someone when they are constantly hurting you. How??
How to fully forgive.
How to move on.
How to look at them with love again.
How to pray for them.
How to care about their wellbeing.
How love them.
How to forget their wrongs.
I fully understand forgiving someone's debts so that we can be forgiven, but the concept of forgiving AND forgetting is grating on me! It's always been something I struggle with - I can forgive and let something go - but I can't ever seem to forget enough to move and ever look at the person the same way.
The disappointment.
The hurt.
The betrayal.
The anguish and pain they've caused me doesn't just go away!
How did Jesus do it? One can't ALWAYS look upward in the midst of human conflict, can they? I know Jesus was perfect and was sent to us as an example, but we're not perfect and so then how can we do those things He did on Earth without error?
God IS my comfort, but how do you deal with issues, with people you see everyday, without acting out of hurt and anger and leaving you feeling abandoned, and unloved? Oh the confusion!!!
Needless to say, today's been less than desireable for me! Is there anymore left to say?
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