...I Believe...

Believing has always been something I struggle with. Believing in myself, in others, in abilities, in God, in miracles, in one's word, in love, in forevers...the list goes on, I have a hard time believing in it! I don't know what's gotten me to the point where I don't believe much of anything, but I often think it's from the fact that I DO believe that I have to see it first in order to believe it.

Actions speak louder than words, and that's the motto that I often live by. So when someone says something to me, it usually means a whole lotta nothing until they prove it. Now this can be good and bad if you ask me and I'll explain why it can be either of these for me...

NOT believing, firstly, is a down fall if the following happens - a) It prevents you from allowing God to do great things in your life. Unless you have an open mind and believe all things are possible, why should he allow you to be blessed? And b) You begin to lose trust for all human kind. If no one should be trusted to keep their word, to do what they say, then you stop allowing people in and building relationships cause no one is worthy.
Now I believe that building a wall is a good thing in some situations. You can't always be vulnerable, and not every situation will stand to be believable. So in some regards, to me, I shouldn't believe everything I hear. I am not a rug, nor a fool...

So what makes believing worth believing? A good thing to me when it comes to believing is trusting that God will take care of you. I believe that God is the ONLY person worth believing. If I am going to take anyone for their word, it's Him. However, believing a good intentioned person, can also be a good thing. It builds trust, strengthens a relationship and allows you to take the necessary steps. But I say good intentioned people instead of generally, because not everyone has others' best interest in mind over their own. There must be boundaries, and you must be careful.

So how do I believe in someone if I'm not sure they are good intentioned or not? That's the part I struggle with. I tend to trust people too easily, but then end up getting upset when they don't follow through. My ability to believe them in the future goes dramatically down. It's a sad thing if you live in my shoes. In my eyes, everyone should be honest, trustworthy, loyal, and ultimately care about you before themselves. I know no one is perfect, however, if you're not actively making an effort to be these things, you do not have those good intentions.

I want to believe everyone, everything...but I know that I must put up a safe boundary for myself so that I'm not the idiot in the end. The one thing I will believe the rest of my life is that God will make me fruitful in the land of my suffering. He promises that He has a plan for my life, and I chose to believe that He has only good intentions for my life.

• Genesis 41:52 - For God has made me fruitful in the land of my suffering.
• Deuteronomy 25:15,16 - If you weigh and measure things honestly, the LORD your God will let you enjoy a long life in the land he is giving you. But the LORD is disgusted with anyone who cheats or is dishonest.
• Proverbs 18:24 - Some friends may ruin you, but a real friend will be more loyal than a brother.